Am I Half A Man, Living Half A Life?

ok so im a sucker for cryptic messages. but thats me. im running down a corridor towards a door. and i wanna get through that door so bad it almost hurts. almost. and i get closer... 20 metres... 10 metres... 5 metres... 2 metres... 1 metre... then i blink, and i am back at the start. after being trapped in this time/space loop for what feels like an eternity.... the question arises; what happens when i turn around and run backwards? or, more importantly, do i want to throw away everything i know in order to see the other side? life breeds and persists inside our buried coffins. but our empty corpses live on. dont blink or its over.