The Drugs Just Make Me Reset

so im back on meds. it seems to me that my life is a cycle, and every time i pop a pill im taken right back to the starting point. i think maybe im gonna become my mother one day, taking enough morphine, valium, oxycontin, endep, whatever shit to send an ox to rehab. like this song. thats my fear. but its not like im taking shitloads of drugs all of a sudden... its nothing major like that. i just gotta get in control of my life. and of course i had to boycott coffee this arvo in order to make it to my appointment. hopefully ppl organised something thats free... otherwise imma have to boycott that too. maybe they just forgot about me. wouldnt blame them everyone else seems to. this probs sounds full whingey... today was just a shit day. but thats ok, coz tomorrow is a new day. x