Warning: Contains 405g/L Acetone

its cold and wet and autnicless. there are two big petrol tankers parked on the road... broken down i think. one on each side of the road. about four minutes ago a big truck almost ran into them. at least it would be warm if they blew up. i dyed my hair black last night... not sure if i like it or not. but its for alyssas party on friday so whatevs. feeling bored and listless... want to do something. but i dont know what. alyssas party should be good... hopefully its dry and warm, but i doubt that. i need money... i want a les paul, or maybe two. yeah, two. one in alpine white with black hardware and one in cherry burst with chrome hardware. that way i have something to play no matter what mood im in. if i was a rock star i would always have ppl around me... id never feel lonely or isolated. there would always be something or someone to do. which would be sweet. not really sure why im typing this... i guess doing something is infinitely better than doing nothing. i wonder what would happen if those petrol tankers blew up... would i die? can you imagine if i did lol... what a lousy way to go. i wanna die having sex or choking on my own drug induced vomit or with a shotgun in my mouth... thats my short list lol. fuck im in a weird mood. maybe its this glue im sniffing. i just read back at what i typed... all you internet ppl must think im some kind of perverted weirdo. which, in a way, i guess i am. crazy josh out.