A Little Glimpse Inside Myself

hi there. im actually unsure of what to say... but i need to say something. apologies for not posting in however long, my internet seems to work for a day and then not work for two. maybe its hormonal. idk. but if you dont hear from me after hmmm.... lets say two days, i want you to look at the sky and scream "fuck you josh's internet" at the top of your lungs. coz that would be the most likely cause for my cyber absence. stuff has happened. so basically some shit happened, which in turn caused shit to be said, which in turn caused shit feelings. if you dont understand what i mean then too bad, those who know will understand... maybe. or perhaps im being paranoid. but its got me asking a lot of questions... but i dont want to answer them. there is so many things i dont know. like, do siamese twins buy one bus ticket or two? when you choke a smurf, what color does it turn? why am i so sure its not me, when it all feels like its my fault? idk. seriously, idk. but i think talking at the world is very akin to actual therapy. but just because i think it, doesnt mean it has become the nature of my reality. signing out.